I ran across a saying I had posted some time ago — “If you don’t have time to do it right the first time, when will you have time to take it apart and do it right the second time?” I’ve spent the last 2+ days ripping seams in the latest quilt. I even took the black borders off of the sides and will replace them with a wider strip of black before laying it all out and taping down the backing fabric so that it is straight. Then, I’ll layer the batting and quilt top as they should be layered, and pin it down from the center out — taking care not to scooch on the top, which is how I think the top got skewed in the first place.
I’ve got the top pressed and ready to layer, but have to cut the new borders for the backing. My dining room table is a sewing area once more–the kids won’t be coming up again until the 10th — soon after Robert is expected to be released from the hospital.
It’s funny. When we faced the surgery deadline before, we were both very anxious and worried. Once it was canceled, it was like the air being let out of a balloon that we were holding closed. We relaxed and somehow, the thought of the surgery didn’t frighten us at all anymore. Now all we want is for it to be over and done with — truly. So strange..
I had packed an overnight bag for myself and also a bag of sewing to do — hand stitching hexagon pieces together. I watched a woman sewing them while we waited in the Ophthalmologist’s office a couple of months ago and thought to myself what a neat project to take with you when you’re waiting. It’s a nice, mindful task to do that would alternate nicely with reading a good book. I do have a problem with not being able to just sit and do nothing. It has always seemed like a waste of what could be productive time–improving my mind (reading) or by creating something for others (sewing). Even watching t.v. in the evening, I crochet or embroider. (or as in the past two days, picking stitches out of a quilt!)
It feels good to be able to start all over again with the quilt. I think I’ll do a bit of different stitching on this one — haven’t quite laid it out as yet, but will soon enough.
Be safe, be well, and please be happy. If you’re creative and you’re unhappy with something you’ve created, you have a couple of choices — three, actually: 1) give it away so you don’t have to see it again, 2) take it apart and fix it, or if it’s a painting, paint over it and start again, and 3) learn from it — determine exactly what you did wrong and accept that it wasn’t your best and try to correct your next work. Perfection takes time and a lot of bad results until you achieve a mastery of craft that satisfies your inner critic.