Thursday, January 20, 2022 — A beautiful day today. I started sewing on the second quilt for “Quilts For Kids”. It’s a super-simple layout, with just strips of color bordering a cute animal print.
I finished the 1,000 piece jigsaw puzzle yesterday. I was pleased to see that there were actually no pieces missing.
I’ll be taking this one back to the thrift store tomorrow and paying for another puzzle (or two). I really enjoy working these puzzles. It takes my mind off everything else, at least for a little while.
It’s been almost a year now that we’ve been waiting for the home in Mountain Aire Estates to become available. It’s given me time to have doubts as to whether I’m pushing for something that Robert doesn’t really want. So today I asked him if he felt that I was pushing him into a situation he really didn’t want. I told him we could stay right here, and he answered me by saying that he was truly afraid of the stairs anymore and really wanted to downsize to a smaller place. He said he felt that living in Mountain Aire was the right thing to do at this time in our life. So, we continue to wait. I don’t know what the house will look like inside, but it has the basis for a good home for us, and if necessary, we can change it any way we want once it’s ours.
Robert had some confusion again tonight. He’s very methodical in laying out clean clothing for after his shower. He puts his underwear and new socks at the foot of the bed before heading into the bathroom to shower. Several times now, he’s got confused and has lost track of his socks or his underwear by either putting them in the dirty clothes hamper, or taking them into the bathroom and coming out to the bedroom after his shower, only to find they’re not where he expected them to be. He comes out tonight and tries to explain what went on with his shower. Once again, he was missing some of his underwear–this time it was his socks. He thought he’d laid them on the foot of the bed with his shorts, but when he came out of the shower, they weren’t there. He looked in the bathroom, but they weren’t on the counter, so he (still dripping wet, mind you), went back to the dresser and retrieved a new pair of socks. As he was telling me the story, I commented, “You went back to the dresser and got a new pair, yes/no?” And he said, “Yes, I did. I’m sorry.” I hugged him and said he needn’t apologize and it was o.k. I understood. But, after a bit of reflection, I think about how he is always saying he’s sorry — and now I can look at the words in a different way and realize he’s not apologizing so much as acknowledging that he’s got no control over his actions at times. He’ll do things and then not remember what he’s just done. That’s got to be scary.
One positive thing that I did today was to join another non-profit group here in Tehachapi. It’s called “The Tehachapi Humanitarian Relief Group.” They distribute food, clothing and support to citizens here in Tehachapi. I put a box of food together and put it out for pick-up and have provided this organization with information on the other food donation group that I had volunteered with last year (The United Farmworker’s Union was handing out COVID PPE materials and food boxes in Mojave. I drove down and sat working with the group for the day.)
That’s about it for now. Please take care of yourself–stay safe, and be sure to tell those you love that you love them.